It's amazing that a group of strangers, scattered all over the country, know more about me then some of my closest family and friends. Thinking I could cope with my loss alone, was a mistake. People don't talk about this, which in return causes people to now know how to react.
They don't know all the little things that they say or do that hurt them. I've been feeling so lost and alone. I dread the nights. In and out of depression. I'm hoping this online support group can bring me out of this. Everytime I think I'm doing better, something sends me spirling back into it.
Sunday, I should have been celebrating my first Mother's Day. Instead I'll be greiving for a baby I never got to meet. This hole will never be filled, but someday, maybe it won't hurt so bad.
